After months of things going well, and then a little bit of time of them going poorly, I feel like I just completely fell off.

I’m drowning in work. I tried to take a leave from my job, and failed. And, everyone who I care about/want to get to know better I basically left out completely to dry. I’ve been a really bad person, and a really mediocre aquantaince.

But, my therapist insists I forgive myself and practice some compassion, which I’ve been trying to do. I did workout a bit this week, even when I really didn’t want to. I haven’t had access to my ADHD meds, which has been hellish for a variety of reasons.

But, I made it this far right? I am the person who pulled myself out of the hole in the first place. I fought to ger here. I fought to be happy. I fought to make everything feel okay.

Why should I think I’m not good enough now? That all this means I’m not doing enough or that I am doing something wrong? I am okay. I am good enough. And I love myself.

Things will be better because I say they will. Things will be better because I want them to. Things will be better because I deserve it.

I am a good person, and I have a good heart. I care for those around me, and I will care for myself, even if no one thinks I can. Even if I don’t think I can.

I love you all, and I love me.

-the writer